yeah, about that....

I didn't have my cry. Those things have to be done very carefully so not to draw unwanted attention :-) I was already feeling sick and yucky, so I wasn't about to make it worse. I will have to put it on the back burner and plan for another time. *sigh*

It is coming up to performance review time here at work. Blah. I hate this time. I hate it since the boss is always saying to build my own goals, etc. Well, I do that and work really hard on it, and then it always comes back to me to change, saying that they are not realistic or something like that. Damn. I work as an accountant, not a brain surgeon. I am not saying that I plan on flying to the moon by third quarter. I am saying that I will have the new filing system up and running for State income taxes. See what happens is that if I make my goals a bit harder and I actually meet or exceed them (which, come on, you know I will otherwise I wouldn't put htem on) they would be compelled to give me a promotion/raise, and sheesh, who would want that? Certainly not them! :-) I just think that it is a waste of time. There are better things I could be doing. Like working on my blog :-)

feeling melancholy

It just happens sometimes. I think that it is very true that some women ( ok most) just really need a good cry. I am not talking about PMS mood swing crying either. Just an honest to goodness cry. About everything. About things that they wish they could change and can't. About the sad story that they heard on the radio or read in the paper. About long lost pets, or friends that they no longer keep in touch with. About missed opportunities. About feelings that they have hurt and words that they could take back. I think that I am due for one of those cries. I have them about 3 or four times a year, and usually in the shower where I don't have to worry about wiping my eyes or snot or whatever. If anyone asks why my eyes are red, then I just say that I got soap in them :-) I think that people just wouldn't understand if I said anything else. Some might, but I am sure the whole, "oh lets talk about it" would come up and honestly, after the cry, I really don't need to talk to anyone about it. I guess it is like the primal scream that they use in therapy or something. Anyway. I think I am due for one of those :-)

I babysat my cousin Olivia on Friday. I wish I could just take her home. She really is an amazing baby. She just mesmerizes anyone that comes near her. She has that certain something about her. Everyone loves her, and she just loves the attention as well. She has CDLS, but I think that she will be amazing within her abilities. Our families give her so much, I really don't think that she will ever have a choice in the matter LOL! She is amazing and will continue to amaze us as well as the doctors. I still don't think that it was coincidence that she was born on Christmas Day, weeks early. God has some plans for this little girl, and I have already seen the changes that she has brought to everyone, for the better. God does send his miracles, sometimes you just have to look right in front of you to see them. :-)

interesting

For some reason I am extremely hungry this morning. Not ored I want to eat hungry, but down right feeling dizzy and stomach growling hungry. So, this is what I have had so far. Mind you this is a list that was compiled before 11:00 am.

**Half a piece of danish left over from Mother's Day.
**Travel mug full of coffee
**Banana
**100 calorie snack pack of cheese nips.
**The rest of a box of wheat thins, and a good handful size.
**Naked Juice-Green Machine..now let me just tell you that the bottle contains the juice from 2 3/4 apples, 1/2 a banana, 1/3 kiwi fruit, 1/3 mango, and then some random additions of Broccoli, spinach, blue green algae, garlic, barley grass, wheat grass, ginger and parsley.

I think that I should in no way be hungry. Stomach growling hungry. Head hurting hungry. I should be putting lunch off until like 2 oclock based on that intake, but I am considering going in the next few mins LOL

woot! on a roll!

Yeah, and I can fell the pain already. I have been getting this pain in my thumb/wrist area again. I had it about 2 months back or so, from I though pulling something while moving some boxes. Well, lucky me, it is back again. So I gathered up my courage, all two strands of it, and called the ortho doc for another cortisone shot. yea.me. I am a big baby when it comes to pain. I don't like it. I will do it if I know I have too, like in this case, but I am not a fan. I want my b/f to come with, but the appointment is for right when he starts work, so he won't be able to hold my 'good' hand through it. The last time I went and he gave me a shot, he did things to my wrist to 'test' the pain. Yeah. It didn't really matter that I TOLD him that it hurt, he had to manipulate my wrist to watch my reactions to see if I am REALLY in pain. He was satisfied that I was I guess, because then he gave me the cortisone shot. I about slapped the shit out of that man. I just wanted to pull that needle out of my wrist and jab it in his eye. Seriously. I am not kidding.. For some reason I thought that it wouldn't hurt since he spent about 15 seconds explaining to me that this spray he was going to use would numb the area. Hmm, maybe we needed to wait, oh, I don't know, maybe for than ONE SECOND for it to work? So anyway, he pulls the needle out finally and says to me, that should be feeling better in about 2-3 days. Well gosh darn it I hope so! Because it hurts more now! LOL!
So yeah, It did end up doing the trick, but I must be doing something that is triggering it again. Don't know what I could have done...So I signed myself up for another cortisone treatment....

on a good note, I have two of those coupons for KFC where you get two pieces of grilled chicken two sides and a biscuit FREE, no other purchase necessary....

Mom is coming!

Yes! She is coming soon to visit me. I can't wait for her to see the condo. I know that she will like it. I think that I will call the office to see if the pool will be open by the time she comes. It will be Memorial Day weekend, so I would think that would be when they would hook it up. I also am excited for her to meet Jerry as well. And for her to meet Megan, my brothers g/f that just moved in with him. I am excited for him to have made that step. Lord knows its been overdue for him :-) But that is a whole nother post ;-)

So yeah, Mom is coming and I am gonna try and brainstorm some ideas. I know garage sales will be on the list - they always are. Trip to the thirft store in chicago as well, and visiting her sister too. Trying to think of something 'special' to do this trip. We always end up doing one 'new' thing, so I need to get crackin. She arrives May 21st

Thanksgiving

I had one of the best thanksgivings I have had in a long time. My boyfriend was a huge part of it too. Turkey came out great, so did all the side dishes. The only thing that I didn't have was stuffing. I am just not a fan, so I was given the go ahead from said boyfriend not to make it. Although, he did say that maybe he would get it for Christmas. Hmm, maybe he wanted me to say, "oh, but you like it so I will make it for you" LOL!! I will give him some stuffing for Christmas :-)

I am counting down the days for Christmas too. I can't wait to have that week off. I will need it since they nature of my job, tax, I will be busy pretty much until April. *sigh* Oh well, I am sure that I will get some good overtime during that looooong spring.

Have you ever looked at something to eat thinking that it must be the most tastiest thing in the world, but once you eat it, you think, wow, that really isn't all that great. Case in point, I keep buying this pesto sauce thinking it just must be the bomb, but i am always disappointed in the end results. But i still keep buying it. Yeah, I know....

Ok, yeah, I know. Don’t even say it. It is what it is. I haven’t posted, but I have been twittering so you still know ‘kinda’ what I have been up to.
A lot of work is mainly what I have been doing. I also have been looking for a new apartment. I found a real nice two-bedroom condo. It has all the little amenities that a good condo should too. A pool, tennis courts, basketball courts, area for soccer and or football, a dog park (yes!) walking trails that run along side of the Des Plains river (great for fishing) and even a sauna and clubhouse. I have never lived anywhere where any of those are offered, so I plan on doing them all at least once. Well, maybe not the football/soccer. I will watch though! :-) So that is September 1st….
Anyway, today I am headed to the state fair. I think that it will be fun. It is just about a perfect day-reading right at 72 degrees and the dew point is under 60. Almost perfect! The thing that would make it perfect is if I could go with my b/f. But oh well, there will be plenty of time to do all the things that I want to. I am just excited to know that I finally have someone that actually WANTS to go do all the things that I want to. No matter how silly and small it may be, if it makes me happy to do it, he wants to do it with me. He says that the important part is just the doing it with me part :-) Awwww

Anyway, I digress….

I am bringing my camera with me to the fair. I hope to have some real fun pics to post like I did that last time.